The Choices We Make

Deuteronomy 30: 15-20

See, I have set before you today life and prosperity, death and adversity.

If you obey the commandments of the LORD your God that I am commanding you today, by loving the LORD your God, walking in his ways, and observing his commandments, decrees, and ordinances, then you shall live and become numerous, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land that you are entering to possess.

But if your heart turns away and you do not hear, but are led astray to bow down to other gods and serve them,

I declare to you today that you shall perish; you shall not live long in the land that you are crossing the Jordan to enter and possess.

I call heaven and earth to witness against you today that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Choose life so that you and your descendants may live,

loving the LORD your God, obeying him, and holding fast to him; for that means life to you and length of days, so that you may live in the land that the LORD swore to give to your ancestors, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob.

1 Corinthians 3:1-9

And so, brothers and sisters, I could not speak to you as spiritual people, but rather as people of the flesh, as infants in Christ.

I fed you with milk, not solid food, for you were not ready for solid food. Even now you are still not ready, for you are still of the flesh. For as long as there is jealousy and quarreling among you, are you not of the flesh, and behaving according to human inclinations?

For when one says, "I belong to Paul," and another, "I belong to Apollos," are you not merely human?

What then is Apollos? What is Paul? Servants through whom you came to believe, as the Lord assigned to each.

I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the growth.

So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth. The one who plants and the one who waters have a common purpose, and each will receive wages according to the labor of each. For we are God's servants, working together; you are God's field, God's building.

Matthew 5: 21-24

"You have heard that it was said to those of ancient times, 'You shall not murder'; and 'whoever murders shall be liable to judgment.' But I say to you that if you are angry with a brother or sister, you will be liable to judgment; and if you insult a brother or sister, you will be liable to the council; and if you say, 'You fool,' you will be liable to the hell of fire. So when you are offering your gift at the altar, if you remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there before the altar and go; first be reconciled to your brother or sister, and then come and offer your gift.

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During the time between finishing school and joining all of you here, I had a six-month-or so “mini-sabbatical”. I was no longer working, I was no longer taking classes, and I was not yet able to receive a call, needing to be six months longer as a Candidate before I could begin my search. 

And so I bought books to read – many more books than I had time to read.

One of the books I bought captured my attention because the title seemed to speak to the call that pulled me away from corporate life and toward ministry.

It was called Forgetting Ourselves on Purpose: Vocation and the Ethics of Ambition. It’s written by Brian Mahan. And like many books on my shelf, I got partway through it but haven’t finished it yet. 

But a story at the very beginning of it stuck with me.

It’s a story about a young woman named Pam, who the author, a professor at the University of Colorado, met when she was a senior there. When he asked her what her plans were for the coming year, a question he often asked seniors pretty casually, he was surprised to hear her say that she was going into the Peace Corps.

She affirmed that it was a really difficult decision, especially because she had been accepted at Yale Law School as well.

The next day the professor brought up Pam’s decision in his ethics class.

And because of the way the discussion went, that first time, he has brought “the Case of Pam” into this ethics class each time he has taught it since then.

You see, the way the conversation went was something like this: first of all, people were polite and nonjudgmental – “well, if that’s what she wants to do, more power to her”.

Then the second wave of the conversation turned a bit more toward questioning her choice, and even some self-reflection: “I wonder if she knew she could apply for deferred admission, maybe go to Yale for Law School after the Peace Corps”,

or “I wonder if her parents were upset, after they spent all that money on her for undergrad, to not take the opportunity at Yale and to go in the Peace Corps instead”, or, “it’s strange that she didn’t realize she could do more for the poor coming out of law school than being in the Peace Corps…”.

And the third wave of the discussion then turned into something like this: “I wonder if she’s just afraid to go to Yale? It’s awfully competitive and tough there”; or “this way she has the prestige of the Yale acceptance, and she also looks like a sensitive person, going into the Peace Corps; I wonder what she’s trying to prove?”

And then someone said, “did it ever occur to you that maybe she lied about getting into Yale Law School? Maybe she didn’t get in, and she’s using the Peace Corps to save face. After all, if she really got in, does anyone think that she wouldn’t have gone?”

The script of our society, of our culture, about success and failure, is this: Choose Yale, and gracefully forgo the Peace Corps. This script, this expectation, is what drove all the angles and suspicions the class brought up, term after term, about this decision.

What does take to resist the pull of our culture toward high achievement, to turn from ambition to vocation, from success to service?

Each of our three scripture passages today puts the issue of choice in front of us.

In Deuteronomy, Moses is giving his farewell speech to the Israelites, after 40 years of wandering in the desert. He knows that they will cross over to the Promised Land, and that he will not go. And so he wants to remind them about all the things they should have learned during this “long enough” time of wandering. And here, in his summation, he says to them, I have placed in front of you life and prosperity, or death and adversity. You have a choice, and you must make the choice. Whichever you choose will have consequences. Follow God, and do not serve other gods and idols, and you will be blessed and live long in the land you are entering. But turn away from God, and serve other gods, and you will not live long in this new land you are entering. It’s your choice.

In Paul’s letter to the Corinthians, he is continuing the conversation with them that we heard from him a few weeks ago – if you choose to focus on being part of the “right team”, and following the “right leader”, then you are choosing the ways of the flesh over the ways of Christ. Each of these teams are fine, but they are all part of God’s plan.  One team plants, another waters – but God gives the growth. As long as you are caught up in jealousy and quarreling, you are showing yourself to be spiritually immature, he tells them – like infants needing milk rather than solid food. We have a common purpose. We are part of God’s one field, God’s one building, God’s one kingdom. There is no room for divisions, and if you choose them, you turn away from God.

And in the Gospel according to Matthew, as part of the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus tells us to choose reconciliation over division. If you are angry with a brother or sister, if you insult someone, if you call someone a fool, you have reconciliation work that needs to be done, and it cannot wait. Don’t come to the table with an offering to God while that sort of thing is left unresolved; go to the one with whom you are quarreling, and be reconciled. Do what needs to be done for reconciliation – it’s our first priority.

The choices laid out here are clear. Choose God over other priorities. Choose God over other teams that appear to lead to success. Choose reconciliation in God over the win/lose situations that divide us. To choose God is to live peaceably with one another, in harmony with one another, to not get caught up in our own ambitions or desires for success, but to put our relationship with God and with one another at the top of our lives.

Our college senior friend Pam chose vocation over ambition, chose service over success. The students in the ethics classes that discussed this case study could not comprehend the choice of service over success that was reflected in the Peace Corps rather than Yale Law School. Our culture does not lead us naturally in this direction; in fact, it raises suspicions when somebody makes that choice.

For us to be the church of Jesus Christ, to really follow God and set aside success in order to choose service, we need to step away from what looks “normal” or “right” from a cultural standpoint, and follow the Lord of Salvation, who washed the feet of his disciples, who rejected the temptation by Satan that would have shown his power and authority, who submitted to the scandal of crucifixion on the cross, who came not to be served but to serve, who emptied himself. Jesus calls us to first be reconciled to one another, and then to serve him by feeding his sheep, tending his lambs, loving one another, doing the things that make no sense in a world driven by ambition, but are the things that truly satisfy the longing in our hearts, and that will bring about the kingdom of God. So let us be about these things, together, as the congregation of New Life Presbyterian Church. And we can trust that God will lead us, will show us, step by step, just how to do this, through the power of the Holy Spirit. Amen.