Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Ash Wednesday Meditation - March 5, 2014

Matthew 6; 1-6, 16-21

“Beware of practicing your piety before others in order to be seen by them; for then you have no reward from your Father in heaven.
 “So whenever you give alms, do not sound a trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, so that they may be praised by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward.  3 But when you give alms, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing,  4 so that your alms may be done in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.
 “And whenever you pray, do not be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and at the street corners, so that they may be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward.  6 But whenever you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.
 “And whenever you fast, do not look dismal, like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces so as to show others that they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward.  But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face,  so that your fasting may be seen not by others but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.
 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal;  but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
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I’ve always found Ash Wednesday to be a bit of a challenge.

Where I used to work, many of my coworkers were Catholic, and they would go to Ash Wednesday Mass early in the morning before work, or else they’d go on their lunch hour, which meant that they would be at work for most of the day, walking around, going to meetings and stopping off in other people’s offices to chat, all this time walking around with this big smudge of dirt on their forehead.

When I was with them, I would try hard to not stare, and to behave with them just like I would on any other day, but that smudge – it was just so obvious – and so, for me it was nearly impossible to act like there was nothing unusual about them.

So when my home church, Westminster Presbyterian in Ann Arbor, began to practice the imposition of ashes during their Ash Wednesday services, I was glad to have the opportunity to worship in this way, but I was kind of disappointed, quite honestly, that I would be leaving worship around 8 o’clock at night with my own smudge of dirt on my forehead, and would just be going home for the evening.

None of my friends or co-workers got to see that I had a smudge too!

Sometimes I would imagine myself stopping off at the grocery store, or maybe the mall, on the way home, just so I could walk around a bit and let some other people see my smudge.

But, in the end, I just went home, and debated with myself about whether it was more appropriate to wash off my smudge before my head hit the pillow for the night, or if I ought to just leave it there, and let time and nature take its course.

In our gospel reading from Matthew tonight, Jesus’ words to us come in the middle of his Sermon on the Mount.

He has already told the crowd assembled on the hill about how it is more blessed to give than to receive.
He has called them salt and light, and he has challenged them to let their light shine, so others may see their good works and give glory to God in heaven.

He has called them not only to love and do good for their friends and the people who are good to them, but also to love their enemies and to do good even to those who persecute them.

And then we hear these words from Jesus, where he tells us how to go about giving alms, and praying, and fasting. These are three ways we often practice our Lenten disciplines, so these words from Jesus are very timely for us as we begin our season of Lent.

The passage ends with words that are probably familiar to many of us.
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal; but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”

But how do we store up treasures in heaven? And what’s so bad about storing up treasures on earth?

In the first part of this passage, Jesus makes it clear why he wants us to do this.

In the Message translation of the Bible by Eugene Peterson, we get another way to hear what Jesus is saying. I’m going to read the first four verses of this passage again, this time from the Message.
Jesus says:
Matt. 6:1    “Be especially careful when you are trying to be good so that you don’t make a performance out of it. It might be good theater, but the God who made you won’t be applauding.
Matt. 6:2   “When you do something for someone else, don’t call attention to yourself. You’ve seen them in action, I’m sure—‘playactors’ I call them—treating prayer meeting and street corner alike as a stage, acting compassionate as long as someone is watching, playing to the crowds. They get applause, true, but that’s all they get.  3 When you help someone out, / don’t think about how it looks.  4 Just do it—quietly and unobtrusively. That is the way your God, who conceived you in love, working behind the scenes, helps you out.

So Jesus is telling us that if we go after the attention and the applause, then that’s what we’ll get – but that’s all we get. That will get added in to our store of treasures on earth.

Jesus is telling us this because he knows how easy it is for us to shift our attention away from God, and to concentrate on what others are thinking. This is one of those places where we benefit so much from Jesus having lived among us, from his humanity. Jesus knows firsthand how often we get distracted while we’re “trying to be good,” and before we know it we’re worrying more about how we’re going to look to other people, and we’ve forgotten what our true reason is for doing these things at all.

The true reason that we fast, and we pray, and we give alms, whether it’s during Lent, or during our everyday lives, is so that we can come closer to God. It’s to increase our understanding that we are completely dependent on God. It’s to help us rely more and more on God; less and less on our own abilities. It’s to help us place our trust in that store of treasures in heaven, and to let go of our reliance on that store of treasures on earth.

What does it take for us to make this shift, to focus on storing up treasures in heaven, and not on treasures, rewards, and recognition on earth?

It starts by realizing and accepting that all that we are, and all that we have is not really ours – it all belongs to God, and we are called to be good stewards of all of it.

If it were our wealth we were giving away, it might make sense to be recognized for it. But it’s not our wealth – it’s God’s.

If it were our words we were praying, then having people admire us for it might be appropriate. But the Holy Spirit gives us words to pray.

And if it were our own strength of will that got us through our fasts, or any of our struggles in life, for that matter, then maybe people ought to give us the credit, seeing how hard we are working at it. But our strength comes from God.

In the end, the purpose of doing these things is not so others can see us doing them, but so God sees what we do. In this way, God sees our hearts.

And this is good news!
We don’t have to worry about what other people think. We have been liberated by God from the impossible burden of meeting other people’s expectations. We can let go of worrying about the results of our efforts to do good. That’s up to God, not us.

The good news is – the only opinion about us that matters is God’s opinion. And God loves us with an everlasting love.

So what does Ash Wednesday have to do with all this?

Well, receiving that smudge of ashes on this day is not about who sees us, or about what they think.

Receiving the ashes is a reminder to us of three things:

First - It reminds us of our humility and our limitations, our brokenness and our broken-heartedness.  We are all dust, and no matter how hard we try to be seen as something more, something great in the eyes of others, dust is ultimately what we all are.

It reminds us of our mortality. To dust we all shall return. Our treasures on earth, our status, our certificates of recognition, our brief moments of fame and fortune, and we ourselves – none of this can last forever.

And, it reminds us of our adoption by God – we are marked by God, we are all children of God, and God loves us with an everlasting love. God hears our prayers. God is our strength when we are weak, whether that weakness comes from fasting, or failure, or discouragement, or loneliness, or temptation. God sees our hearts when we are generous toward others with our time and our resources.

Through our salvation in Christ,
we have been released from the bondage
of lives that only matter based on what others think of us,
and we have been freed
to live our lives completely in response to God’s love for us.

And that, brothers and sisters in Christ, is good news!


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